Hi Cory, firstly <hugs and hugs and heres a pink blankey to keep you warm in melb!> Secondly, step into my office and have a lay down on that nice couch LOL :) ok ok now onto the serious bit
Firstly, ask yourself why do you need to appologise to anyone? If you are appologising for being who you were at a particular time in your history during a stage of learning, why are you appologising for that? Do we ask 6th graders to appologise for not being able to spell spaghetti in the 2nd grade? No, why not? I will let you answer that one.
Secondly, are you with anyone right now? If the answer is no, then perhaps the reaction to the guy was a touch of your ego (not the big head type of ego) being jealous, "sheesh, he managed to find someone why cant I?" if that is not the case and you are with someone, did you break up with him or did he break up with you? These things are important to know from which side your wounded self may be looking at it from. If you broke up with him, perhaps there is a part of you questioning if maybe she sees something in him that you missed, if he broke up with you perhaps it is a case of why wasnt I enough to make him happy. You already know the answers to all of these questions. and there are of course so many different options other than these couple as to why you felt that reaction.
The soulution however is the same for all of them, when ever you feel any reactions like these with anyone from your past, stop, close your eyes, take the deepest breath in, feel the reaction, say to yourself, ok Im reacting to this, and now I will let it go, and breathe out, push every last bit of air out of your lungs and then SMILE, I know that may sound weird or hard, but trust me and try it, make yourself do it. You will be amazed at the results. If you need to do it 3 or 4 times thats quite ok, go ahead and do it. Also as you are breathing out, feel the feeling coming out through your solar plexus chakra, you may get the shivers, or goose bumps or some physical reaction, thats when you smile, you are replacing the negative pattern with a new one, smiling, joy. Make sure you take a breath in and out when you smile also. So here it is again in order.
1. Feel the uncomfortable feeling, stop, close your eyes, take a deep breath in and say "ok I am reacting to this"
2. Breathe out, push it all the way out of your lungs and say to yourself "and now I will let it go" feel the feelling going out through your solar plexus as your breath goes out of your lungs. Allow any physical reaction to happen.
3. Smile and take a nice deep breath in and then let it out while still smiling.
4. If the feeling persists, repeat the above steps 3 or 4 times.
Hope that helps honey... .love and light
